Been a while...

Dude, I haven't posted here in a while and I really do want to keep up with this, you know for the two people who read it (one of which is myself). Oh crap, I gotta give Gen her phone back. BRB.

Okay, I'm back. I could delete all that but why bother. It's more fun this way. This week has been pretty productive, which is nice after almost a fun of being unfocused and moody (manic some, depressive some). I'm still writing so that's great. I've put editing my own projects on hold for the summer so I can focus on writing and that's really working out for me. I can't divide my creative energy like that and actually finish something. And now I have words for a kids book going through my head so I'm pausing again. BRB.

Okay, that's partially done -- we'll see if I finish it. Clearly I'm still having attention problems, but at least they're somewhat productive now.

Mostly I wanted to mention that I'm (finally!) in therapy - and it's going well. I've had trouble in the past finding a good therapist, one that I can connect with and trust which is obviously extremely important. I've tried therapy before but never went to more than 2 sessions with anyone (except for a great counselour I had at SIU for ten weeks). I just stop going because I don't feel like I'm getting anything out of it.

Well I have finally met a therapist that I really like and is really good at her job. I've gone for 5 weeks in a row now and have gotten so much out of each session. I really feel like it's helping me focus on what I need to figure out and learn about myself. Right now the joblessness (going on two years in january!) has me really bummed and I'm questioning my abilities and talent and I feel like I'm never going to get employed in my field again. I'm also looking at switching careers, but this is a bad time to be doing that. She's helping me sort out my feelings on that subject and hopefully I'll be able to decide what direction to go in the next month or two. I just don't feel like the editing jobs will recover to the point that they were need to for me to get hired. I'm not an animation person (my mind just doesn't think that way) and that's what people are looking for right now. I kick ass at montages, but no one really wants montages right now. Well, corporate work never really did go in for that anyway.

So yeah, just thinking -- trying not to be too upset about the job situation (which I know a lot of people are in the same place as me on that), and therapy is definately helping. so yay for that! Thank you Johnson County for having such great mental health options available for poor people!